I love fresh starts.
Every time a project ends. Every new moon. After every big (or small) event.
Every Monday.
Every morning.
I tell myself that I can start fresh at any time.
This is a good thing. We need to be able to shake off the old and start new sometimes.
The problem starts when getting “fresh starts” all the time becomes an excuse. I can eat the ice cream tonight because I’ll start fresh tomorrow. I can skip working out at all this week because I can start fresh on Monday. I can blow my budget now because I’ll start fresh after the holidays.
Starting over and over and over has resulted in little being actually accomplished. I look back on the last few years and feel like so much time has been wasted. I’m exhausted and overwhelmed. Stressed out. Feeling weighed down and unhealthy, with a face full of zits and a constantly churning gut.
This isn’t how I want to live my life. I want lightness and freedom. I was energy. I want joy. I want to be a better mom, a better friend, and a better human being.
Over the last few years I’ve read and listened to hundreds of books, blog posts and podcasts. I know what I need to do to live a happier, healthier life. And I’ve tried a lot of things – exercise routines, supplements, products my friends sell on Facebook – and nothing has stuck. As soon as I get stressed, good habits go out the window. The exact opposite of how it “should” work.
So, once again, I’m starting fresh.
I’m starting this blog – my fourth in the last couple years – because I want to hold myself accountable. Because I have stories to tell and lessons learned that I want to share. And because I am determined to figure out what works for me so that I can actually make the changes and get closer to living the life I truly want to live.
Starting now.